It is true. The doctor told me so.
The last time I tried it, I talked about everything but the important stuff. Like how I was disappointed in myself for not going to take a walk in the park to visit my squirrel friend that I named Demetri. I only went like 3 times. Either way it got me the doctor's note I needed to pass a class.
Really that is why I ended up at the doctors this time. I required a doctors note to get out of work. But now I'm done with that job and do not have to worry about it anymore.
But I really should persue the therapy thing. The doc gave me a card, but I don't know if I will be able to afford it. I might have to find somewhere cheaper. Or I could keep talking to you folks, my nameless faceless friends (with the exception of like one) who don't judge me. I love you guys. And I will keep you updated.
I should probably get back to work. I mean it is a job I like and all....
The important stuff like doing more than just accepting yourself? Move on to 'I love who I am because I Rock!'
ReplyDeleteI had postpartum depression and then my mother died of breast cancer. I became self destructive and it was a battle to do simple things like laundry. I saw a psychotherapist, who was awesome and there is no way we could have paid for it if not for my husband's EAP, employee assistance plan. Check and see if the new job offers that. It covered the first few visits and allowed us to also go to couples therapy.
If I were permanent I would be covered. But alas, this is just a seasonal gig.
ReplyDeleteI am suddenly thinking of Willow's line in Where the Wild Things Are. "Transform your pain. Release your past. And... uh... get over it."
Now I wasn't raised by a crazy religious lady in a children's home but I have my own sexually repressed poltergasm that has plenty of issues.
I have been watching RuPauls Drag Race and like how she closes the show "If you can't love youself how in the hell you gonna be able to love anyone else."
I have been trying to fake it til I make it but it is difficult. Especially since I am totally awesome.